How much more? How much more can we bear and still remain a family? I'm being tested and I'm failing. And I am angry! So, very, very angry. Why is doing the right thing deserve a punishment? Why is my effort never enough? Why must my kids bear the brunt of my choices? Everyday, I feel less and less of the person who I thought I was. I feel my as if my very soul is being pulled out of me and it is thrown to the ground where it shatters and disappears like a puff of smoke.