Today was one of the days that I dread. If my life was an airline flight, the Fasten Seat Belts sign would have been on for the entire day because there was non-stop turbulence on a non-stop flight. Nothing different happened. No major change or activity that upset Mom. She was just keyed up and over-reacting for most of the day.
As most of you know, I write this blog and occasionally talk about this situation on Facebook simply as a release. It relieves the tension. I do not want sympathy. I do not deserve a pat on the back. I am doing this only because I have to do it. I appreciate the comments and the support that I receive but I don't expect them.
But, I have to be honest, I do not enjoy the comments that try to throw a positive light on the situation. I find nothing positive about Alzheimer's. I can appreciate the comments for the attempt to bring some positivity into the situation. But, no, I don't want to dance to the rhythm of the hammer. And, no, I am not thankful that I still have my mother. I would be overjoyed to still have her in my life, but she hasn't been here in a very long time.
So, before I run everyone off with my negativity, from the bottom of my heart, I truly appreciate your comments. They often allow me to see things in a different light. And, I do know that sometimes what I post is funny. Please, laugh. And know that I see the humor. But, please, do not ask me to dance or to be positive about this heinous disease. I cannot and I will not.