Sunday, January 13, 2013

I won't dance, don't ask me...

Today was one of the days that I dread.  If my life was an airline flight, the Fasten Seat Belts sign would have been on for the entire day because there was non-stop turbulence on a non-stop flight.  Nothing different happened.  No major change or activity that upset Mom.  She was just keyed up and over-reacting for most of the day.  

As most of you know, I write this blog and occasionally talk about this situation on Facebook simply as a release. It relieves the tension.  I do not want sympathy.  I do not deserve a pat on the back.  I am doing this only because I have to do it.  I appreciate the comments and the support that I receive but I don't expect them. 

But, I have to be honest, I do not enjoy the comments that try to throw a positive light on the situation.  I find nothing positive about Alzheimer's. I can appreciate the comments for the attempt to bring some positivity into the situation.  But, no, I don't want to dance to the rhythm of the hammer.  And, no, I am not thankful that I still have my mother.  I would be overjoyed to still have her in my life, but she hasn't been here in a very long time.   

So, before I run everyone off with my negativity, from the bottom of my heart, I truly appreciate your comments.  They often allow me to see things in a different light.  And, I do know that sometimes what I post is funny.  Please, laugh.  And know that I see the humor.  But, please, do not ask me to dance or to be positive about this heinous disease.  I cannot and I will not. 

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