More random thoughts:
-Mom has been fairly calm today. She woke up and started looking at the family pictures on the walls. She hasn't looked at them in months. But, she recognized that they are family.
-She has called me by name several times in the last couple of days. It is a foreign sound to me now and I actually have to stop and think about the fact that she is talking to me.
-I have called a few people, family members and friends, and let them know that we have decided to place Mom in a home. Most all have taken it well. I upset a couple of people, but I think it is the reality of the disease and not the decision. Either way, I know in my heart that this is what is best for all and especially Mom.
-Lots of busy work coming up this week. Phones calls, paperwork, more phone calls and getting Mom's things together.
-I'm still having to say no to things that I want to say yes. But, the girls and I are talking about doing things with a "when we" instead of "if we". And that is exciting.
-Lots of work ahead of me. This house has been neglected for too long.
-While I see the light at the end of the tunnel, I am not feeling any relief yet. When the paperwork is done, she is in and adjusted, then, maybe then.
-And last but not least. I have to go job hunting. I never imagined that I would be broke and unemployed at 54 years old. But, He has carried me this far and I have faith that He will continue.